ending :)

Helo reader, is my blogging time. Now my brain all is about you again. As I know, once I had made my decision, I can’t turn back anymore, and I should face the facts that I was did! Tat’s right, I gave up you! :((Start from now, you are not being in my heart… the minute I think of giving up, I also think of the reason why I held on so long. Just because I don wan let you go, I try to hold you, but I leave you at last. I oways hovering between adhering to and giving up, indecisive…until my heart is tired~ I shall remember when the pain of holding on is greater than the pain of letting go, it’s time to let go. Ya…you agree! We have chosen to let go~~

A feeling of ur love doesn’t disappear on my mind in a short period, so I will try…try to forget you! Sometimes I had a stupid sense, I wish I could just take my heart and turn it off, so I wouldn’t have to feel pain anymore. Now I need is TIME! Day by day when for, and treat you as my normal fren…but I know if two past lovers can remain frens, it’s either they were never in love or... .. anyway, I’LL TRY!! Cheers!!

Thanks for my lovely frens had comfort me when im down… you are right! I shall be strong coz I still have family and frens to support me! I’ll look as a lesson! I know im sad and somehow regret, but is better than continue our relationship although we know d problem >.<

Actually I should appreciated YOU had walked into my life, and teach me a lesson. Perhaps our ending is not wonderful, but I had learned something special in my first love J some memories can make me smile, but it can very well make me cry hard too. Tat’s why we should realize how huge the power of love is. In fact, you are a good guy in my mind, a caring and filial man I ever met. So I chose YOU. But I hate you always escape, and try to run away from the difficulties. You know what I mean right?? Anyway, I hope you happy than before!!! oways Keep your smile JJ

All ending are also beginnings. cheers!!!

a nice song by Bii~ is suitable for me now :D

本来。。。想对你说的话

你最近还好吗？你快乐吗？（这是我会说的话吗？）不要觉得突然为什么问你这问题，还有写这给你。。。只是说真的我们的话越来越少~自从我们在一起后，我的烦恼越来越多，不是说我不满意你的表现，而是觉得你太离谱的在意朋友的感受了，就觉得我在你的心里连朋友都不如！不要生气~就比如carmen 和秀婷。。我觉得她们已经代替了我~在你心目中无法缺少的朋友关心和在乎。。那我宁愿成为你朋友的一分子。。不是吗？虽然我们是从朋友相识两年后才成为恋人的一组，不过以前我们不是很快乐吗？（不要说你现在还是很快乐）>.< 什么话题都能摊牌来讲，难道现在就不能吗？ 但是如果是能的话，我现在也不会选择用写的。。一直都认为，huh？？情侣也要选择写的方式吗？讲不就可以了？！真的不容易！我们之间的问题我已经堆了每天不一样的心情来面对，不要说我想太多！是因为我太在乎你！所以想摊牌的跟你讲！但是一看到你就不知如何开始这话题~心也乱了~我也一直逃避这些问题，明明知道已经出现状况，为何还要逃避？！！>.<已把这问题来度过上个学期的生活。。真的觉得很难熬啊！！还有还有~上次我们不是有聊过叫我要比较了解你吗？而你不需要太了解我。。。其实我觉得我们都要互相了解，这样才会知道对方到底要的是什么~就比如上次terz的生日，我其实很气！你为什没有叫我去帮忙呢？去tesco也没有问~而我的脸皮又很厚！明知道很想帮忙，但是当我看了你的信息说“nw im going to synin hostel prepare dy yaa,you take gud care thr,later I will go fetch you”心情马上变down!!!整天呆在家里无所事事~其实我想知道你当时的心情。。。是不是不想让我去又有何原因呢？是不是你不喜欢我会妨碍你们，有我在就会导致你被绑着？我真的很想知道。。。其实很多事情我们知道，却假装不知道！这不是心机，而是觉得你不说可能有你的原因，很可能得到的答案不是自己想要的，这样伤的不是更痛吗？你也应该体会过吧？另外，我知道跟你在一起一定没有结局的。。。不过女生嘛，一定会有想想未来的时候。。而我要拥有完整的初恋，不想白白浪费掉！虽然每一次我都开口说选择放手，但是你应该知道我还是会选择留着的！ 这些根本就是我的气话，只是我有时候觉得太累才会说的~对不起！！ 说到这三个字“对不起”，你最近都跟我说了对不起。。其实我要的不是你这三个字，因为我觉得说对不起往往不能换来一句没关系。。。其实我的心觉得很伤，不过我依然努力的弥补它，为的不就是要让自己坚强！想再次恢复自己原本快乐的心情面对你~而且我给你很多自由不是吗？

有没有觉得我们最近也很少见面了。。是真的很少~情侣为什么会这样？！我们又不是远距离的问题！>.<才隔一楼都不愿找对方。。haiz~我其实会怕面对你，怕的就是没有话题聊。。。应该是说，我们的话题应经收藏在心里，没有开口的跟对方说~已冻结了。。。（你，不要再跟我说不会没有话题啊~）问你到底怎么了，你又说没什么。。。可是一直都看到你在fb写bo bo的东西，不问你就觉得我这女朋友不关心，不体贴~问了，我就知道你一定会说“没有啊！我只是写爽而已，siao hior?”谁会相信，难道还不了解你的性格吗？！还有，我们越来越少话讲了，连sms也少了，几乎只是每天晚上睡觉前说：gud nite,sweet dreams,muackss!! 就这样又一天过去了。。。每天循环一样的东西~会厌倦嘀~

你知道我为什么喜欢你吗？我喜欢你的体贴，你的温柔，觉得你对爱情专一，懂得爱情，如何处理好爱情，还有相信你说的话，已给了我对你的信任度。。不过，你要知道，人是不会有完美的，不能完全的同时拥有友情和爱情的平等50 和50，这叫贪心！一定会有多数的一方面。。所以我知道你会忽略了我~而我也慢慢懂得原来喜欢一个人不容易，要欣赏他的好，更要接受他的不好。。。而我已经慢慢的接受你的全部，怎么办，我越踏越深了:X

真的是第一次用写的，会讨厌我吗？？我是想快点解决这些问题，要不然我们闹的情绪也越来越惨了。。。永远都不会知道对方的心情。。。你有什么话说吗？




20/4/11 凌晨4.30
这一切已成为过去~已经不能在挽回了... ...

hey guys, im back to blog now!hehe...it's been 2 weeks din open my blog dy,due to this few days had many activities waiting for me, and my new semester subjects are abuse me! what the MIS,IT, business finance...it is so hard for me to study!apparently is kinda lazy mood recently >.<

what's going on last week? yay! is wesak day!!! i went out wif my lovely housemate. begin, we planned to celebrate joemin's belated b'day geh, but it getting ruin. fortunately, we bought a present for her instead of a meal.hehe...she laugh till can't see her eyes -.-jkjk

the gal who is the 1st time appear in my blog~ joe min♥

1st Avenue's chatime

~healthy drinkkk~

thursday, 19 of may, i had a bbq party with my classmate at singmay's house that located at air hitam. there were foreign-style houses which had a good environment i never seen before. very expensive tho~ this is our 1st party for new semester. it's a amazing place for us to party,summore have big swimming pool there, wink**we reached there about 7 smtg if not mistaken.

gals have gals talk, and guys have their own ham lam sam kap tho! you know wat is it? i just know is a special game for m15.. 猜拳??!! LOL...but every time when i see them play will laugh till beh teng!! hahaa...especially the punishment.

a nice place...any party can be held here :))

bbq ingredients

look tasty rite? :D

yummm~~

playing ham lam sam kap :))

let this moment be forever♥

singmay's room~ is full of pink color :))lady~

how about my sat & sun? i headed to Gurney, Prangin and 1st Avenue again =) shopping shopping & shopping!!! my purse gonna pikkchaa tho~ and i was spending more than hundred dy..=((

only few pichas for these 2 days...forgive me :( just the things i bought, and some pichas are quite blur, so din upload nah...okay, is enough to share for you guys. time to sleep now...have a good good night!!! =))

stay tune my next post♥ 

night peeps :)

an energizing day

yay~is the day...3 days working at pikom pc fair for selling sony waterproof pendrive...so nervous, that is my 1st time work lei, din have any job experience~OMG, unbelievable im doing sales right now, be a promoter to sell my pendrive...summore have many competitors thr, need to promote the pendrive how well it is, hw much it is, offer offer....come come come~~ ashhh...damm tired!! but im satisfied with it...a wonderful day for me~~thank you hendrick!! i get my salary!! yeah...never work and get salary before, so this time is my 1st time to earn money for myself..hehe...